Mafumafu (まふまふ) - Handicap （ハンディキャップ）

落っことされて 捨てられて

Okkoto sarete Suterarete

Dropped on the ground, and then a-thrown away

埃被っては

Hokori koumutte wa

I’m covered up in grime and dust

再三縫って繕って 饐えたぬいぐるみ

Saisan nutte tsukurotte Sueta nuigurumi

Constantly stitched and a-patched back up, I have forgotten who I was

いつでも世界は曇り空

Itsu demo sekai wa kumorisora

Is that the sky? So why, is it a-covered in gray?

仮縫いの瞳じゃ

Karinui no hitomi ja

Perhaps it’s also a hidin’ face

結わいた糸や幸せに

Yuwa ita ito ya shiawaseni

And now we see, through these plastic button-on eyes

気づけるでしょうか

Kidzukeru deshou ka

A mere delusion to terrify

名前も知らない 空の青さも知らない

Namae mo shiranai Sora no aosa mo shiranai

Dunno my name, it’s a lie Or the a-blueness of the sky

人の温かさなんて知らない

Hito no atatakasa nante shiranai

Nor the warmth that comes of others, I dunno, I don’t try

深く首まで被さっている

Fukaku kubi made kabusatte iru

This disguise of mine, a-pulled it up around my neck

作り笑いの脱ぎ方を知らない

Tsukuriwarai no nugikata wo shiranai

That’s the biggest problem here I dunno how to say goodbye

あっちむいて こっちむいて

Atchi muite Kotchi muite

Looking here and looking there, I’m

取り繕って

Toritsukurotte

Patched up and worn to pieces

ボロボロに破れて 痛いよ

BoroBoro ni yaburete Itai yo

What is there for me to even do, it hurts, ya know?

縫いついて蝕む ハンディキャップだけ

Nui tsuite mushibamu HANDIKYAPPU-{Handicap}- dake

Handicaps, just handicaps here, they’re sewn in deep into my heart

この空っぽのボクを叱ってくれる

Kono karappo no boku wo shikatte kureru

You scold me angrily, It’s all the fault of this empty part

両手を振っても蝶になれやしない

Ryoute wo futte mo chou ni nare yashinai

Even if I wave my hands, I can’t become a butterfly

殻を破っても 鳥になれやしない

Kara wo yabutte mo Tori ni nare yashinai

Even if I break my shell I can’t go flying through the sky

惨めに泥水を吸っても 花は咲きやしない

Mijime ni doromizu wo sutte mo Hana wa saki yashinai

And even if I reach and a-try to absorb this muddy water by my side

そうしてがらくたのボクは何になれもしない

Soushite garakuta no boku wa nani ni nare mo shinai

I’ll never bloom, just wilt and pathetically wonder why I even try

羽ばたき方をよく覚えていないのは

Habataki kata wo yoku oboete inai no wa

Forgotten wings by my side, I wonder how I ever managed to fly

元より羽がないという結論

Oto yori hane ga nai to iu ketsuron

It must be there never were a pair of wings, wings of mine

どうして爪ばかり長いのだろう

Doushite tsume bakari nagai no darou

Tell me why, why these claws of mine a-reach so long

傷つけずには君にも触れない

Kizutsukezu ni wa kimi ni mo sawarenai

I can’t even touch the you I love without a-doing wrong

あっちむいて こっちむいて

Atchi muite Kotchi muite

Over here and over there I’m

継接ぎだらけ

Tsugi hagi darake

Patched up and worn to pieces

こんな血まみれの手は 厭だよ

Konna chimamire no te wa Iyada yo

Truly hating both these crimson-stained hands of mine

転ぶたび増えた ハンディキャップだけ'

Korobu tabi fueta HANDIKYAPPU-{Handicap}- dake

Handicaps, just handicaps here, there’s nothing else within my heart

この空っぽのボクを飾ってくれる

Kono karappo no boku wo kazatte kureru

You show an empty me upon this shelf that I’ll never leave

出来損ないでも 嫌われものでも

Dekisokonai demo Kirawa re mono demo

But even if I fall apart, but even if I lose their hearts

穴だらけでも

Ana darake demo

But even if I lose their hearts

ねぇ 昨日より上手に生きるから

Nee Kinou yori jouzu ni ikirukara

I’ll do an even better job of living than before

触ってくれますか

Sawatte kuremasu ka

So won’t you please just come and hold me tight?

あっちむいて こっちむいて

Atchi muite Kotchi muite

Looking here and looking there, I’m

取り繕って

Toritsukurotte

Patched up and worn to pieces

ボロボロに破れて 痛いよ

BoroBoro ni yaburete Itai yo

What is there for me to even do, it hurts, ya know?

あと一歩 歩けば自由になれるの？

Atoippo Arukeba jiyuu ni nareru no？

If I take another step then will I be able to be free?

ゴミ箱を満たすボクの顔

Gomibako wo mitasu boku no kao

This garbage can from which my rotten face can be seen

ああ 今日もまた

Aa Kyou mo mata

Ah, once again today

ああ 今日もまた

Aa Kyou mo mata

Ah, once again today

生きるために死のう

Ikiru tame ni shinou

I shall kill myself just to breathe